I’ve been out of the writers’ loop for a while. I went back to school in the fall, and I was so busy writing research papers that I couldn’t bring myself to write creative papers. I had so many things that I have wanted to write about, but I had also become paralyzed at the thought of sharing personal information when I was busy learning so much about the human psyche. Could I somehow reveal too much? Would I regret sharing later? But a part of me knows that I have to keep writing, if only for my sanity. The need to write gnaws away at me, no matter how busy I am with other activities and no matter how many doubts I have about sharing.
Sometimes people express their dismay that I have been willing to share such personal details of my life: depression, anxiety, worry, indecision, and parenting craziness. For a while, I might question my decision, but then I remember what is right for me. Reading other people’s stories throughout my life has had a major impact on me. Nothing has made me feel less lonely than reading something and thinking Me, too! I was just inspired to write again because today I watched Brene’ Brown’s TED talk on shame and she quotes, “The two most powerful words when we’re in struggle: me too.” Yes! So I will continue sharing my stories in the hopes that I might reach someone else who feels the same way. When I can clear out my cluttered head, I will write about my husband overcoming amnesia, me going back to school as a forty-something-year old, my little guy struggling with anxiety, and me working my way toward becoming a school counselor. Of course, I will also write about the pug eating the Christmas tree. And the eyes off of every stuffed animal in the house.
Thank you for reading. I can’t wait to connect with you in the New Year!